Wednesday, July 8, 2009

My heart breaks as you take your long journey



Well, it has been quite a long time since our poor blog has received any attention. We haven't posted since Bray-Lynne was born...soooo, about 6 months! Anyway, today I started thinking about how much Brandyn and I have gone through since we've been married. Our two year anniversary is coming up and the past two years have flown by!

To begin with...we graduated from UNI in May of 2007. That same weekend our Grandma Becklund suddenly got sick and passed away. Two months later we got married and bought a house. We were married four months and got a boxer who we named Cubby. Five months after Cubby we found out we were expecting our first baby. We welcome Bray-Lynne Grace (The name Bray-Lynne was our own creation. The name, Grace, was our Grandma Becklund's middle name) to the world on December 23rd, 2008. Six days before that we welcomed our first niece into the world. About a month after Bray-Lynne was born we decided we'd move to Pella so Brandyn could begin farming and I could be a stay-at-home mommy. Just recently we lost another grandma (our Grandma Filer) to sickness.

When I stop and think about that...all I have to say is wow. There obviously have been many other things that have happened but these are the big ones. You may wonder why I chose to write a summary of the past two years. Honestly, losing a very special person in our lives has really made me stop and think about everything life has brought us. We are thankful everyday to be able to live such wonderful lives. We have the best family and friends you could ask for.

As for the title of this post...that may be a question of yours as well. Brandyn and I like to listen to the album "Raising Sand" by Robert Plant & Alison Krauss. Yesterday, I drove into town to do some errands and the last song on the Raising Sand CD came on. I didn't realize it 'til yesterday but the last song is about a person dying and taking their long journey to Heaven. The lyrics say...'my heart breaks as you take your long journey' but it also says that one day we'll walk hand in hand with the loved one and big family above. I've listened to that song several times since then and for some reason it's brought comfort to me after losing someone we cared so deeply about. Brandyn and I were very close to both sets of grandparents but in particular my Grandma Filer.

Gram Filer was a widow for 12 years before she finally got to be with her husband in Heaven. She also finally got to reunite with her first born child (my Uncle Lloyd). It was so hard because my grandma was always this spunky woman and for some reason I think we thought she'd never die. She was just shy of her 90th birthday...turning 90 on November 22nd (same day our nephew, Lake, was born)! My entire family was coming to Iowa City to throw her a surprise party next weekend...we had this whole scheme so she'd be surprised. I was working on a slideshow for her. This surprise party has now turned into a memorial service. I'm still doing the slideshow and that has been good 'therapy'. Although this loss has been tough we find comfort in all the great memories we have with her.

** I am technically challenged sometimes and can't figure out how to get the youtube video on our blog. At any rate this is the song if you'd like to listen. The video is slideshow created by some random person. Also, part of it is blacked out. The point that you get to hear the song. Visit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9TmJBBKYmU.


I think that is all for this post. I will post more again another time and update you on Bray-Lynne. I will also get some pictures up of her!

1 comment:

Papa and Nana said...

Reading your updated blog was a great way to spend time in the presence of God this morning. Thank you for allowing Him to work through you to make me realize the importance of thinking about our "journeys". Our sympathy goes out to you both and your family. Instead of celebrating 90 years you are blessed to celebrate Gram Filers life here on earth.